Bingee Eater

Seperti yang telah diketahui para khalayak ramai #halah, semenjak kuliah memang berat badan saya naik secara drastis. Kalau kata internet sih, mungkin saya kena sindrom “bingee eater”, alias makan berlebihan jika sedang stress.

Padahal kalau flashback ke zaman-zaman sekolah, saya termasuk orang yang picky soal makanan dan sering sekali nggak makan kalau nggak ada yang nyuruh makan atau kalau nggak cocok sama makanannya. Hmm... kenapa bisa begitu?

Mungkin ini takdir #iyalah, tapi dari dalam lubuk hati yang terdalam, sepertinya saya tahu apa penyebabnya. Mau ikut melihat masa lalu bersama saya? :p err... mungkin ini memakan waktu agak lama, boleh sambil tiduran membaca ini (iya kalau ada yang mau baca).

Iseng (Part 2)

Hohoho, juuuuust iseng. Pengennya foto-foto kayak para hijabers, tapi jadinya malah kayak orang garuk-garuk kepala bingung nyari duit yang jatuh hahahags 😝😝😝 *abaikan pipi*

Thankies my lil' sis for taking this photo. LoL XD

22

It's true that time is flying by too fast.

This year, a lot of things happened to me. Saya mulai dari mana dulu ya? :)

Di awal tahun 2015, semuanya berjalan dengan lancar. Kuliah saya alhamdulillah lancar, alhamdulillah sehat, alhamdulillah sempat agak kurusan dikit, rezeki juga lancar, yang belum cuma ketemu jodoh aja, hahah XD. Pokoknya di awal tahun ini, everything ran smoothly in my life.

Hingga pada 1 Juni 2015, terjadi suatu hal yang merubah hidup saya. Bukan karena negara api yang menyerang #heleh, tapi di tanggal itu, saya mengalami sebuah musibah (yang akan saya ceritakan di postingan berikutnya -mungkin-).

Setelah mengalami musibah itu, saya tahu, saya tidak akan bisa kembali seperti dulu lagi. Banyak hal yang physically berubah. Tangan kiri saya tidak akan bisa kembali seperti sebelum musibah itu terjadi. Pipi saya yang sempat tirusan, kini chubby kembali, lebih chubby dari pipi saya yang paling chubby sebelum-sebelumnya. Hiks T.T. Lumayan sedih ketika banyak orang berkomentar kalau saya tambah gendut :"). Tambah sedih ketika mereka bilang kalau saya makin jelek karena ini pipi udah balapan sama hidung. Saya hanya bisa tersenyum mendengar komentar mereka :'). After all, they just don't know what I've been through in these past three months.

Oke, lupakan tentang berbagai komentar dan perubahan fisik saya. Terlepas dari semua itu, musibah tersebut telah  menyadarkan dan mengajarkan saya banyak hal.

Dari musibah itu, saya menyadari betapa selama ini masih ada banyak jarak yang terbentang antara saya dan Allah. Saya harus lebih rajin mendekat pada-Nya, harus lebih banyak berdoa, berdzikir, dan bersyukur. Saya harus lebih "menerima" diri saya apa adanya, mencintai setiap apa yang Allah berikan pada saya.  Harus lebih banyak mensyukuri nikmat-Nya, terutama nikmat sehat dan selamat.

Dari musibah itu saya tahu betapa keluarga saya sungguh sangat menyayangi saya. They did everything to save my life. Everything! dan saya sungguh sangat sangat bersyukur bisa memiliki keluarga seperti mereka. They may not perfect in other people's eyes, but they surely are perfect for me.

Dari musibah itu saya juga belajar tentang pentingnya mengingat Allah di setiap hembusan nafas, karena saya tidak akan pernah tahu kapan Allah akan mengambil nyawa saya.
Dan yang terpenting, dari musibah itu saya belajar untuk sabar dan ikhlas. Sabar dengan proses penyembuhan yang memang memakan waktu lumayan lama, dan ikhlas menerima kondisi saya yang sekarang.

Sungguh, di tahun ini saya benar-benar mendapat pelajaran yang sangat berharga. Dan saya bersyukur, karena Allah selalu bersama saya dan menemani saya ketika saya berada dalam kesulitan.

Thank God for these wonderful 22 years that You've given to me. Thank God for giving me the most amazing mom, the most amazing family. Thank God for giving me the most sincere friends, and Thank God for your wonderful blessings. :)

Saya hanya bisa mengucapkan banyak-banyak kata "Alhamdulillah" untuk semua yang Allah berikan pada saya. Alhamdulillah Yaa Allah, selama 22 tahun ini hamba masih bisa bernafas, dan masih sehat.

Happy Eid Mubarak 1436 H

Minna-saan, hisashiburiiiii.... ^^
How was your ramadan?
For me, it was such an unforgettable moment, because this year, this ramadan, a lot of things happened to me. The good things and the not-so-good things.

There were times when I was just want to cry seeing my condition, but when I thought again, I should not be sad, I should not cry. I should believe that Allah has a certain plan for me, the most beautiful one. I believe that Allah always makes a great scenario for me. And I will always believe it.

In this year's ramadan, I also learnt to be more patient and ikhlas. No matter how bad the situation, just put your trust in Allah.

Well, I think that's enough for my random talk, lol.
Happy eid mubarak everyone. I hope you all had a great eid and always healthy ^^. I'm sorry for all my mistakes that I ever did to you all.
Have a nice dayyy ^_^

Kartini Day

Today, my country celebrates of what we called as Kartini Day. It's such a woman independence day and the woman who struggled to make the women had a same right with men, was Kartini. So, that's why, we called today as Kartini Day.

As far as I remembered, back then when I was in my school days, when the Kartini day came, we had a flag ceremony in which the inspector of the ceremony (?) and others who had a duty in that ceremony were women and they should wear kebaya.

However, in Kartini Day, I never wear kabaya because I wasn't the chosen one who had a duty in doing the ceremony 😜

I'm just an ordinary girl after all, ever since my pre-school days, I never wore kebaya in Kartini day.

But....
This morning when I went to the campus, I saw many little girls and boys had a carnival for celebrating Kartini Day.
They were wearing traditional clothes and were totally cute 💗. I was glad seeing them all dressed like that.

It always makes me remember on how big my country is and I'm really proud of that. Thus, I should give my gratitude to Kartini because without her, I think I cannot go to school until this far, or even go blogging :)

I know this post is quite short, but all I want to say is "Happy Kartini Day, my beautiful fellas" :)

Tired

Aaaaa.... it's almost midnight and I still cannot sleep.
Recently, I've been thinking about everything waaaay too much, and it makes me frustrated.

I've been thinking about my assignments in this semester which always make my brain going to explode.

I've been thinking about my future dreams but mostly I'm questioning to myself... "what are you going to do in the future? ", "do you still wanna be a teacher? a writer?", "do you still wanna have a chance to study in foreign countries?"..... and that kind of questions keep spinning around in my head for almost every day :(

I've been thinking about graduation too. You know, as the time goes by, my highschool friends, one by one, start to graduate from their study, and I start to get panicked.
I'm glad that they are graduating from their study, but at the same time I also feel kinda sad, because I feel that I'm left behind. The reason is, of course, because I take a new major in the university after I have a year enrolled to my previous major.
So, this year, while most of my friends already worked with their thesis (they are in their 4th year at the university), I still stuck in the 3rd year. Everyday, I always ask to myself, "Can I make it only in 3,5 years?" I really really want to graduate in 3,5 year. I hope Allah would listen to my prayers :"))))

Soo yeah, that's some thoughts which make me feel so tired recently (I still have many thoughts that I haven't written in this post TBH :p)
But for now, I think that's enough... :)
I hope everything would be okay

Yukataaaaaa...!!!

 

pantes nggak? khekekeee :3

BERPETUALANG SEHARIAN DI SEMARANG :3 (Very Late Post)

Holaaa minna-saaaaan~ ohisashiburi desune?^w^

Pada akhirnya saya mengingkari janji yang saya buat sendiri :”(. Tahun kemarin saya janji bakalan sering update blog, eh faktanya...... sama sekali nggak update T.T gomen neeee~ mau gimana lagi, the last semester was such a pain in the neck *dilempar bakiak*.

Hontou ni gomennasai m(_ _)m